Post by Tsukuyomi Kawada on Mar 29, 2023 23:00:55 GMT -5
The first day out in literal weeks was something that Tsukuyomi almost couldn’t process. He’d been locked in the solitary closet for making the Kawada look bad. At least in the eyes of his grandfather who’d for the most part snatched up control of the noble family. Nothing Tsukuyomi ever did lived up to his expectionatons, a fact that wounded him emotionally up until last month. He’d been locked up for the last year with only perhaps two weeks of total time set free, last month though he’d asked his grandfather why he treated him this way after everything.
All he got was the worst sort of response and now Tsukuyomi felt like he had nothing left, no real reason to be a Shinigami. He’d dragged himself out of the Rukongai after his mother had died. He’d only learned of his noble blood after he’d graduated. He didn’t have any of them just a few years ago, now though after all the near death experiences, all the lives he’d taken along with the people he’d met and then lost. Despite his age Tsukuyomi felt broken, he needed someone to help him, but all he had was someone who hated him. Someone who viewed him as nothing more than a scar on the blood.
Tsukuyomi had to be seen once in a while otherwise Central Forty Six would revoke his position as the Vice Captain of the Eleventh, in reality though Tsukuyomi didn’t really feel like that position was his now. His grandfather controlled everything whether he liked it or not. He’d been reduced to nothing more than a name. His eyes once dark as the void unable to perceive the light of the world now had nearly as much darkness enveloping them. His long pitch hair was tattered, split, unclean bathing was a privilege for the strong. Tsukuyomi was a failure, a false Shinigami that’d been beaten too often, besmirching the name of Kawada.
A single bucket of cold water is thrown on him every couple of days and then when he would be allowed just a small bit of time out like now more buckets along with some ice and then perfume would be splashed on him. A horrible scent that Tsukuyomi couldn’t pick up on anymore, all he knew was he must smell foul as his skin in many areas was now red with rashes and damaged skin. Keep up appearances as the Vice Captain moving throughout the Seireitei where others could see him, otherwise be beaten, harder than what was given for the last failure.
Right now he walked without thought just placing one step in front of the other while doing his best to focus on what a pleasant experience this was now. The air was fresh outside, the Russ of the sun felt nice on his pale skin. It made him want to shred his uniform although he knew that’d earn him another beating. He had to be presentable at all times otherwise he wasn’t fulfilling his duty. “How did things turn out like this? Am I really meant for nothing beyond this stupid name?” What else was there for him though he couldn’t do the unthinkable otherwise he just proved them all right.
All he got was the worst sort of response and now Tsukuyomi felt like he had nothing left, no real reason to be a Shinigami. He’d dragged himself out of the Rukongai after his mother had died. He’d only learned of his noble blood after he’d graduated. He didn’t have any of them just a few years ago, now though after all the near death experiences, all the lives he’d taken along with the people he’d met and then lost. Despite his age Tsukuyomi felt broken, he needed someone to help him, but all he had was someone who hated him. Someone who viewed him as nothing more than a scar on the blood.
Tsukuyomi had to be seen once in a while otherwise Central Forty Six would revoke his position as the Vice Captain of the Eleventh, in reality though Tsukuyomi didn’t really feel like that position was his now. His grandfather controlled everything whether he liked it or not. He’d been reduced to nothing more than a name. His eyes once dark as the void unable to perceive the light of the world now had nearly as much darkness enveloping them. His long pitch hair was tattered, split, unclean bathing was a privilege for the strong. Tsukuyomi was a failure, a false Shinigami that’d been beaten too often, besmirching the name of Kawada.
A single bucket of cold water is thrown on him every couple of days and then when he would be allowed just a small bit of time out like now more buckets along with some ice and then perfume would be splashed on him. A horrible scent that Tsukuyomi couldn’t pick up on anymore, all he knew was he must smell foul as his skin in many areas was now red with rashes and damaged skin. Keep up appearances as the Vice Captain moving throughout the Seireitei where others could see him, otherwise be beaten, harder than what was given for the last failure.
Right now he walked without thought just placing one step in front of the other while doing his best to focus on what a pleasant experience this was now. The air was fresh outside, the Russ of the sun felt nice on his pale skin. It made him want to shred his uniform although he knew that’d earn him another beating. He had to be presentable at all times otherwise he wasn’t fulfilling his duty. “How did things turn out like this? Am I really meant for nothing beyond this stupid name?” What else was there for him though he couldn’t do the unthinkable otherwise he just proved them all right.