Post by ☾ Aevus | Umbra ☽ on Jul 19, 2022 5:33:28 GMT -5
What came after Lumina’s death seemed like a fog to the newly awakened Vizard. Days would turn into weeks, and those weeks into months. It was hard to keep track of time when you let it fade into the background. When your goal was no longer possible. It sort of became a blur when nothing really mattered to you anymore. He had stayed with Zeich for what time he had too. Taking the blind Vizard’s kindness in stride. Learning to call upon the power of his Inner Hollow without letting it fully consume him.
Yet each time he wore that black mask, he felt as if he lost himself in the Hollow’s shadow. As if he was sinking into himself, and letting that vulpine shadow spread over him. In truth it didn't feel like she was controlling him per say, but he felt her will becoming his own. As if his fate was being bound to hers in every sense of the word. Sheltering him down a shadowy path, he knew not where it led him. And with that black mask he realized he no longer really cared. Hell part of him actually welcomed that loss of self. And in his isolation, he had realized perhaps he always had.
He had turned to Umbra when he had first joined the Onmitsukido after all. Letting those golden eyes take him. Giving into her influence during his assassinations. It had become a ritual of sorts. More so an addiction. He was a killer, but he certainly didn’t have the heart for it. Letting those sultry whispers sway him, was a way to cope with what he was really doing. All just so he didn’t have to feel the guilt or responsibility. So he could dissociate almost completely from the act of killing. Yet in the end, he had become the very thing he had hunted for so long. And well that guilt came back in waves regardless of how much of his heart he let that Vulpine swallow.
Upon leaving, Aevus had left Zeich with a sincere thank you. He remembered the blind vizard had even offered him a meeting with a manger of a corporation called UE. He had also agreed to help him find a place to rest his head. It certainly would have been smart of him to stay and go along with it. Aevus was even the one who had brought it up to begin with. But in the end, Aevus said no. That he had no desire to be shackled. He just wanted to learn what he had to with Zeich and leave. And in truth, his heart strangely still belonged to Soul Society.
Part of him was still that lost soul in that alleyway of Inuzuri, holding the corpse of a child. A young girl named Aura with a dream of becoming a hero. And in those stealthy teal eyes of hers, that is what a Shinigami was. He had thought he had abandoned that foolish dream long ago to save his dear Zanpakuto Spirit. But no. He had embraced it. He tried to the play the hero; he only failed. It took wanting to save Lumina to realize his heart wasn’t black. And it took losing her for him to wish it was.
During his time under Zeich's roof, Aevus would leave each night to be by himself. Not to hunt, nor train, but to look out to that lone moon. He also wandered and explored the city. Taking in the sights. In truth, he knew he was going to leave Zeich’s home at some point. His walks wern’t merely trivial. He was also searching for a place he could lay his head. Somewhere abandoned yet possibly warm. It was during one of these nightly escapades he had found something truly remarkable.
In a neon sign covered street, filthy and littered with garbage. Aevus came across an abandoned clock tower that stood out amongst the other buildings. Upon inspecting it more closely, the tower seemed to be built in at least the last fifty years. It was a strange thing to find here. The architecture was Gothic and seemed originally European inspired. Yet over the years it seemed it couldn't escape the lands influence as well. It was like an amalgamation of the two, creating something Aevus had never seen before.
Perhaps the architect was inspired by old medieval towers. Aevus could only guess why it had been abandoned. It seemed to have moved from owners over the years. Hinting at why it had Japanese influence as well. Wooden scaffolding surrounded the outside of the tower. Possibly from previous unfinished or perhaps failed projects. Graffiti littered the outside of the building, and neon signs pointed to nearby stores and brothels. Thankfully nobody was brave enough to scale the old scaffolding, so the inside didn’t suffer such a fate. For the main entrance of the tower had been sealed. Thus forcing Aevus to find an alternate route through a window near the middle of the structure.
The interior was composed mostly of the clocks mechanical gears along woodwork and brick. It was in obvious disrepair. The gears no longer moved which was not necessarily a bad thing. Aevus was actually kind of glad of that fact. He would have been driven mad by the constant ticking. Upstairs the former Shinigami found himself looking at a possible living quarters. He would find abandoned furniture as time went on. And over the course of those months that shoddy tower had become his new home.
Alone again. He fell into himself during that time. His reflection soon showed a rough complexion of his former self. Time moved slowly for his kind, and yet it seemed to catch up to him rather swiftly. Over several months he seemed to weather. An unkempt beard covered his face, his blue eyes once burning with a longing to fight fate. Now seemingly formed permanent black bags underneath, that had undoubtedly succumbed to it. He hadn't seen hair of Umbra during that time. And yet he could still hear her sultry whispers in the dark of the night. Part of him didn't want to face it, and yet he knew, she was his Zanpakuto Spirit. In the end Umbra had taken both Lumina's name, and place as his source of power.
And so he just wouldn't release his Zanpakuto. In that time he made sure not to put himself in a situation where he'd need to call upon his release. His Mask on the other hand had become a crutch. And in a sense, it had become an escape. He felt her influence deeply so, but it didn't call her back to him like Shikai or Bankai would. And so he wore that vulpine mask without question. Though it wasn't like he was making excuses to wear that mask. He had barely trained outside of what Zeich had taught him.
And Like Umbra, his contact with Zeich wasn't completely severed. Aevus had merely taken a break to rest, and be by himself. It was a nice escape for a time. But Aevus knew if he stagnated he would never recover. Heh, Lumina would never forgive him if he just completely given up. He had kept contact with Zeich with his own personal Hell Butterfly. He had kept it after leaving Soul Society, keeping the Black creature within a small bird cage. It was reminder and link if had ever wanted or needed to return there.
And so one day he agreed to meet Zeich in a forest clearing outside of Karakura, where no eyes would see them. His training had ended, as well as his rest, and so it was time for the Vizard to test his capabilities. The canopy of the forest shaded him as he walked beneath the trees. His sullen blue eyes catching the faintest hint of moonlight as it peaked through the leaves. Much like the forests of Soul Society, this place was peaceful. Aevus enjoyed the solitude as he walked. Yet it wouldn't last long, he had agreed to meet Zeich tonight. And not just meet him, but his Zanpakuto, as well as his mask. It was a scary yet exciting thing. He coveted the thought of clashing with the blind man. Yet facing his mask was another story. And using his own against him was also daunting. Aevus would materialize that vulpine mask letting it linger for a time. Yet even after a few seconds he felt as if might lose himself in that black. Am I ready for this? He'd ask himself removing the mask. His fingers tracing the black bone as he held it out in front himself. Allowing the moonlight to filter through the eyeholes before letting it dissipate in his grasp.
Wondering into a clearing, Aevus would eye that lone moon. The grass was longer here, reaching to his knees. Fireflies littered the place. Igniting the clearing with spots of yellow-green light. A pink weeping cherry blossom sat in the middle. Aevus would reach it, resting his back against its bark. A cool breeze sifted through his darkly hairs. It fell through the trees and long grass, as Aevus waited for Zeich to arrive. He began taping the the handle of his Zanpakuto at the thought of his coming fight under the stars.
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