Shizuka gives pointers.(Training Thread Pg-13 NDE)

[Katekarin Mekatoku]

"Wait.. That's just how everyone is supposed to live. I don't know if it were really Katekarin doubting it. I think you were there from the beginning. But tell me more." he listened and nodded for a bit. "More or less you can speculate that I was here since the start of his life. But I only see myself as just a part of a whole personality. Split so that we were never whole." he thought about it some more. It was undeniable that he is a part of the original personality or that he was just a split. That he was still Katekarin but chose to act and change his name. In a sense he knew that he was a personality but chose not to believe it. He watched her calmly listen to his, or Katekarins life. He was surprised no questions arose from there, but he choose not to bring it up till the end.

When she apologized about him taking everything away from Katekarin he only laughed. "Dont worry about it. We hate each other but at the same time have some sort of a respect for each other for being capable of doing what the other couldnt. But in the end I will make sure that I am the dominant personality." he grinned. That grin was a promise, he wanted to fulfill that goal. No matter the consequent. he continued on till he finished. But Shizuka said something he would never expect anyone to say. EVER.

"I still don't understand, but I can make a few guesses to my questions. I won't bother asking. But I know you're a good guy. You always have been. You just... don't really know what to do with it, I think." a massive grin appeared on his face as he laughed. Not in mockery but from a joy, of humor. "That is a good one. But you dont get me. I am not good, I was never good. I am a cruel personality, all of his anger, his hate, his negative emotions. What good can that be! But your questions. Ask anyways, I love telling stories." he had not angrily yelled at Shizuka. But more of asked her in a surprised tone. Zukarinkuari felt himself a monster, a freak, a psychopath and this pushed people away. He didnt mind it, he was negative emotions put into a body. He was quick to anger and a violent person, what good can someone like that be? And he made sure to vocalize it. "How can you see me as a good person. When it is clear I am evil." he asked squinting his eyes and focusing on her. "You know me to be evil. A cruel person who takes lives without regret, what good can be in that?" he finished.

[Shizuka Sanamizu ✮]

"It's what you hide that's good. Why won't you just sit down and believe me? Are you so used to being hated, so used to being shot down that you refuse to listen? What are you, really?"

She wasn't really frustrated with him, though she knew her tone made it sound like she was. She wanted nothing more than for him to just pay attention to her and believe her when she said he was good, whether he knew it or not. Sure, he might have taken away the lives of many people she didn't know and they probably didn't deserve it. But the thing is, they were not what his personality was about. Zukarinkuari was more than just a personality. He was a person. She knew this. But she wanted him to know it. She sometimes wondered if it were possible to make a clone of Katekarin's body and put Zukarinkuari inside of it. Is that strange? Perhaps impossible, or something like that. She just wanted him to feel like his own person. But both personalities highlighted each other. If one of them was separated from the other, both would be useless. She knew this.

Shizuka was always wondering what life was like being messed up. The closest she ever got was slightly off her rocker when she started fighting. And that hardly counts. It barely makes a difference in her life. She had only one other friend who ever made Zukarinkuari seem normal, for lack of better words. But even then the whole mental destruction thing seemed a bit strange. She only wanted him to realize his own potential, not as an other half to one being, but as a separate entity in himself. Katekarin was the master of the body. Zukarinkuari had to recognize that. But as soon as he did, and as soon as both of them accepted each other instead of blaming the other for their faults, the sooner she would be able to control them. And no, not in a bad way. She needed Katekarin to be able to take back his body whenever he wanted. That was troubling.

[Katekarin Mekatoku]

"It's what you hide that's good. Why won't you just sit down and believe me? Are you so used to being hated, so used to being shot down that you refuse to listen? What are you, really?" his grin disappeared as he would show her a more serious face. That of a passive one that was about to answer a serious question. He looked away for a few seconds before staring back at her. And that is when he would answer her question.

"Haha. The only time I come out is when someone is about to take "my" life. When they only see me as a target, someone to eliminate. And that is all. So yes. I am so used to being hated that I expect others to view me as a threat." this was an aggressive growl. As if Shizuka had asked a very deep question that he expected her to know. He was always that type of person. The one that had to defend Katekarin because he was incapable of defending himself. To him Katekarin was weak and that is why he always viewed himself as the hated but strongest. Finally it was the last question that she had asked. A smirk appeared on his face.

"What am I? You ask? What Am I?" his smirk went down to his passive face. "What I am is an executioner. The broken man whom has little regret for the lives that he has taken. The man whom he had to take the blunt and abuse of everyone in general. The one whom is silenced when he took his medications the one who hears the voices and whispers of thousands but I do not understand what they are saying. Who I am or What. I am? Well... I am nothing but the negative emotions Katekarin can feel. And nothing else." this statement was rather true in many ways. And this, as Zukarinkuari spoke would show how personal and close this subject was.

[Takashi Kuchiki]

+515 TP for both participants

Note: Only took 2 years!