Post by Ruhe Krieger on Dec 21, 2021 4:25:48 GMT -5
Ruhiger Krieger was a sweet girl. A charming personality on the surface. She sought to be a paragon of what a Vandenreich expects. Loyal, devout, eager to serve, diligent, proud but not to the point of hubris, and countless other little expectations and burdens. She followed what was expected of her. She performed well, and for a Quincy of her age, she displayed incredible talent and skill. However, she had often found herself depressed, especially when nearing "home". If one could even call it that.
Some part of her heart had desired to hate her family. To destroy them, and to show them what she'd become in such a short time. To take over their community. Another part wanted to melt into their arms, and to see a semblance of pride, and love, and praise from them. She found herself often staring into the moon, contemplating about trivial things such as the existence of God, or the Emperor, or if they were one and the same. About her life, and also more and more often about potential death.
Her cerulean orbs were soft as she rested along the rooftop of a charming place in Berlin. She took out her Viola, of which had a deeper, richer sound than that of the Violin, and she closed her eyes and played her feelings. It was a hobby she had developed when living in the ruins of Cochem, and it was one she honed for some time in the Vreich. An archer needed dexterous hands, and a good child needed to be skilled and enriched in all things.
The sound was dark, and shrill, as if it was a cry, before becoming more somber, and restrained, as if to muffle, only to rise upwards again. A cry, a wail, a scream, before slowly closing short. Sometimes, Ruhe felt as if she wasn't meant to belong. There were those that would detest and try to kill her for what she was, and there were those that would kill and detest her if she didn't conform to what they wanted to be. She didn't revel in power, and authority, and violence, and any of those things. She desired to be loved, and truly loved. Not in a romantic or sexual way, but in an unconditional way.
That sometimes felt like something that not even a God could do. Lightly placing her Viola back into its case, she lovingly rests it along the wall, as she exhales, feeling the cool frost. It was bad for the strings. For her instrument. For her perhaps. However, she loved the Winter in its cold, unforgiving beauty. "...Emperor? If you're out there. Listening to me? I wonder. Am I loved? Truly? I feel so scared. So alone at times. Y-You know?" She couldn't help but curl her lips upwards, in a nervous sort of smile, as if perhaps expecting a response. Other than the whistle of cold wind blowing by.
Some part of her heart had desired to hate her family. To destroy them, and to show them what she'd become in such a short time. To take over their community. Another part wanted to melt into their arms, and to see a semblance of pride, and love, and praise from them. She found herself often staring into the moon, contemplating about trivial things such as the existence of God, or the Emperor, or if they were one and the same. About her life, and also more and more often about potential death.
Her cerulean orbs were soft as she rested along the rooftop of a charming place in Berlin. She took out her Viola, of which had a deeper, richer sound than that of the Violin, and she closed her eyes and played her feelings. It was a hobby she had developed when living in the ruins of Cochem, and it was one she honed for some time in the Vreich. An archer needed dexterous hands, and a good child needed to be skilled and enriched in all things.
The sound was dark, and shrill, as if it was a cry, before becoming more somber, and restrained, as if to muffle, only to rise upwards again. A cry, a wail, a scream, before slowly closing short. Sometimes, Ruhe felt as if she wasn't meant to belong. There were those that would detest and try to kill her for what she was, and there were those that would kill and detest her if she didn't conform to what they wanted to be. She didn't revel in power, and authority, and violence, and any of those things. She desired to be loved, and truly loved. Not in a romantic or sexual way, but in an unconditional way.
That sometimes felt like something that not even a God could do. Lightly placing her Viola back into its case, she lovingly rests it along the wall, as she exhales, feeling the cool frost. It was bad for the strings. For her instrument. For her perhaps. However, she loved the Winter in its cold, unforgiving beauty. "...Emperor? If you're out there. Listening to me? I wonder. Am I loved? Truly? I feel so scared. So alone at times. Y-You know?" She couldn't help but curl her lips upwards, in a nervous sort of smile, as if perhaps expecting a response. Other than the whistle of cold wind blowing by.