Post by Deleted on Sept 5, 2018 22:39:20 GMT -5
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Type: Cunning
Affiliation: Vandenreich
Rank: [the highest I can go. lol]➴ 「. B. A. S. I. C.x.I. N. F. O. R. M. A. T. I. O. N. 」⋆
Name: Gwendolyn Von Stier, Melody-- (M)
Age: 23
Birthday (Month/Day): May 15th
Blood Type: AB-
RP Sample (Optional): hell na➴ 「. A. P. P. E. A. R. A. N. C. E. 」⋆
Height/Weight: 5'1 | 120 lbs.
Physical Description:
Quiet and shy Gwendolyn Von Stier is not one that always stands out initially. It's easy to miss her at first. Though, when she is noticed by others, she sticks out like a sore thumb. A pretty one at that. She is the epitome of a beautiful wallflower. She has style, she has grace and if she happens to stand out or catch someone's attention, it is only because of her gorgeous looks. In a room full of people, some might turn their heads to ogle the Stern Ritter and revel in her beauty.
This Stern Ritter has a seemingly delicate appearance. It almost looks as if she is a fragile figurine. Pretty to look at but seems like you could snap her like a twig. If someone were to drop her, she’d break. Though, she isn’t so helpless or as frail as she appears to be. She is much more than that and her disarming, weak appearance is considered to be a tool. While Gwen is not terribly athletic looking, she is toned and her clothes give her a very trendy, girly appearance. Gwen is very smoke and mirrors.
She stands at about five feet one inch. Gwendolyn is extremely short. She has the capability of being extremely sneaky and is small enough to get around and pull off all kinds of tricks. Her time at home was basically training for sneaking out and about and around the castle. She is slender just as mentioned previously and is a B cup borderline C cup in bust size. Somehow this is important and it will totally get mentioned in a thread. She doesn't have big feet and again, she is the equivalent of a beautiful doll overall.
Gwen’s hair is a golden platinum blonde in color. There are subtle icy micro highlights blended in and very cool undertones in the color. It’s not overly yellow or gold to the point that it is brassy. Brassy blonde hair is ugly and never wears well on anyone. Platinum with gold and icy accents is the way to go while maintaining her never ending love for her favorite color in the world. This hair color is very particular to her and the overall color of her hair has a very wintery feeling, reminiscent to her home in Silbern which is fairly cold.
Her hair is quite long and voluminous. Gwen is normally seen sporting tousled, loose, large beachy curls in her hair. It's never quite straight but never fully curled. Like it won't commit to a full curl even if she wanted to. It is an almost every day look for this girl. Though, she is very much capable of straightening her hair further though and sometimes can be seen wearing that every now and then as well. Her hair length runs just below her bust, barely passing it. She always wears a middle part with some pieces cut to frame her face adding more to her doll like appearance.
Her facial shape is that of an oval. Upon first looking at Gwendolyn, people would be immediately drawn to her large, unassuming cerulean blue eyes. They aren't that striking shade of blue but they're a pair someone could easily get lost in. She's got high cheek bones, full rosy pink lips and her skin tone is extremely fair. Porcelain even. Her lashes are long and thick and have a natural curl to them. Often she will wear mascara to color them black and emphasize her eyes further. Her brows are a dark, dirty blonde and have a straight style with an arch in the outer third of it. She will typically wear light blush and bronzer to accentuate her features.
Gwen's appearance is generally pretty neat. It is tidy. She isn't messy looking and there is never a hair out of place. While she does dress quite simple, she makes sure to adorn herself in golden accessories. You will absolutely never, ever, ever see Gwen wearing silver. Silver is a complete travesty and will cheapen anything. At least, in her humble opinion it will. She has a strong adversity to silver on herself. She wouldn't judge anyone else for it. It is just that on herself, it is extremely gross and doesn't suit her one bit.
Accessories you can typically see Gwen wearing are earrings, necklaces, bracelets, rings... you name it! In the name of sneaking around and being somewhat stealthy, she generally won't wear anything that would make way too much sounds. Chains that are too long or anything that will interfere with one another is an absolute no-no. She will traditionally wear white gold or rose gold. Any variation that pleases her but she generally leans towards variants of gold that have a more true yellow undertone. However, she won't go too brassy. She wears necklaces with roses and leaves as well as filigree rings that cover a good portion of the finger she wears it on. Curb chain bracelets along with dainty ones with small charms on it.
Her vandenreich uniform isn't average. It is unique but not to the point of standing out which Gwendolyn hates. - note to self pls finish➴ 「. P. E. R. S. O. N. A. L. I. T. Y. 」⋆────── ✖ ──────D. I. S. L. I. K. E. S
↫ Silver: The step down from gold. Not nearly as beautiful or refined. It's second best. Although Gwen isn't a huge freak about winning and being in first place constantly, she does not like the implications of silver. Always in the shadows of gold. Tragic but that is how the world sees it.
↫ Parents: Gwen resents her parents entirely. They would not let her go anywhere. They would not let her experience anything. They kept her trapped like a bird in a cage and chose her future for her. To be Stern Ritter of the Vandenreich and to make the legendary Von Stier family proud. Not once was Gwen allowed to make a decision for herself. Father was evil. Mother was horribly cruel. Screw both of them.
↫ Making Decisions: Ties in to the last thing. Gwen has never been given the option to do anything for herself and if it came down to her making one, she simply wouldn't know what to do. She would get extremely nervous and shy and probably stand there looking around for help. Appearances aside, she is horribly awkward.
↫ Helplessness: Gwen hates this feeling. The feeling of not being able to do anything but sit by and watch the world pass you by. She's felt it for the entirety of her life. One day, she'd like to not feel this way and do things on her own without her family interfering.
↫ Kiwis: This fruit is disgusting. The texture is weird. The fuzziness perplexes her. The outside is weird. The inside is weird. The color is super weird. They taste how they look and they don't taste good to Gwen whatsoever.
↫ Violence: Gwen truly detests violence. Especially when it is unnecessary. What she hates even more is that she is part of something that she cannot control. The fear of her peers in the Vandenreich and her family is what makes her do such terrible things. If she doesn't follow orders, she knows she is dead meat.
↫ Kept in the Dark: Attempts to keep Gwen ignorant of anything will make her incredibly angry. As someone whose parents wouldn't let her learn a thing about the world around her, she dislikes anyone stopping her from learning about anything her heart desires. She just wants to know more about what she was kept from.
↫ Peers: "They're all the same. The same clothes. The same faces. The same brain... I'm tired of seeing the same thing over and over." Gwen has great distrust for her peers. Though, it is mostly because she thinks that they might be against her for her own ideals and opinions. She is fearful of what they might do if they found out she was different.
↫ Blind Obedience: To listen to things blindly and obey them without question seems so... Unfortunate. Why can't we question things? What happens if we do? We aren't servants. We should be able to do whatever we want to. Although Gwen is obedient, it will only go so far. Having a mind of your own is important to her.
↫ Killing: Killing is the worst thing you can do to someone. Anyone! Everyone has a right to live and life is precious. To take that away from someone is not only heartbreaking, it's unforgivable. Lately, everyone just kinda views death as a normal thing. They don't know the value of a life and it's sad. There are better ways to resolve your problems. Death is truly not the answer.
↫ Alcohol: The smell is awful. The taste is terrible. It makes everything slow down and makes it all hazy and blurry. People are the worst versions of themselves and they end up making really bad mistakes. Heartbreaking ones too. If it is a special occasion, Gwen will have a sip but that's likely as far as it goes for this girl.────── ♥ ──────L. I. K. E. S
↬ Gold: Gold is beautiful. Gwendolyn loves the way it looks as an accent on various things. Sometimes an entire room filled and decorated with anything made of gold. Gold showed wealth. It brightened things up and made them much more lively. She loves what it symbolizes, what it does to something dull. Everything is just better with gold in it.
↬ Animals: Gwen adores all kinds of animals. Furry ones especially because they're so cuddly and huggable! Gwen can't have pets because her parents are evil, but if she could, she'd have as y as one could possibly have.
↬ Magic: Gwen loves seeing magic tricks. She loves performing them whether it be with a deck of cards or pulling bunnies out of hats. Even if it is the most stereotypical of tricks and performances, Gwendolyn loves the novelty of them and the entertainment value it provides.
↬ Grandma: "Grandma was the best. She loved me and if she had it any other way, she wouldn't let me join the Vandenreich. Maybe. She'd take me far away from Mom and Dad just like she tried to last time. We'd get to travel the world and see all kinds of stuff just like that one time. She taught me everything I know now. I miss her."
↬ Fairytales: Gwen loves fairytales. The idea of magical godmothers and dragons and knights and princes! It is so fascinating! They are stories she could easily get lost in. They're all trapped in their own circumstances but eventually, their story ends with them escaping it and being whisked away and being free from it.
↬ Fantasy: Speaking of fairytales, Gwen loves this genre. Anything is possible and the use of the author's imaginations never cease to amaze her. Unfortunately, her parents do not allow her to read such books but her grandmother used to smuggle in a good fantasy novel every now and then when she was around. It's her guilty pleasure.
↬ Romantic things: In all the fairytales, the prince gets the princess! That's the number one rule~! The idea of love and falling in love and watching it happen on paper is heartwarming to her. Gwen loves the cute things people do and say to show their affection for the other person. She loves the process of two people falling in love and loves the idea of their love growing even stronger as they go through life together. While Gwen herself isn't even remotely brave enough to entertain the though and even if it may not be with her, she loves seeing it with other people and in stories
↬ Decorating: Making things pretty and adorning objects is what Gwen loves to do the most. She loves to decorate anything she can get her hands on and its quite skilled at doing it. This girl any opportunity she can get to beautify things. Whether it be a room, an outfit or even a weapon! She can get quite invested in it and will work as hard as a busy bee whilst doing it.
↬ Pastries: They're sweet! They're delicious! Some of them are crunchy! Some melt in your mouth! Gwen likes the sweet taste and texture most pastries bring. As long as there are no kiwis involved she a very happy camper. Gwen is a huge fan of chocolate anything as well as vanilla anything. Strawberry is alright but not her first choice. Caramel is amazing!
↬ That one Soldat: "There's this one Soldat that's always around protecting stuff around the castle. He helped me once and it meant a lot. He didn't seem so bad like the others. He was quiet and I didn't interact with him a whole lot but that's what I liked because I don't really like talking to the others."
↬ Tea: Tea is relaxing and it's pretty calming. It's not something that'll make you hyper and just run marathons. It calms you and helps your creative juices flowing. Whenever Gwen is having a rough time, she'll often make herself some tea and just unwind and take a moment. She feels a weight off her chest when she can relax for a moment and have herself a cup. She likes all kinds and flavors of tea. From Earl Grey to Jasmine.────── ♦ ──────F. L. A. W. S
Kind hearted: Gwen has an immense amount of mercy within her heart. She will often take it easy and try to do her best to do the right thing whether the situation calls for it or not. Tell her a sweet story and speak sweet, kind words to her and you'll immediately have her sympathy.
Slightly Rebellious: Seldom this happens but ultimately, Gwen follows her heart. If its dire enough, she will do it. Being corralled into one house and sequestered from the rest of the world by your parents is no fun and rather than go insane, she had to find small, tiny ways to get back at them. That or find something to occupy herself with when she wasn't studying or training. While it is entirely harmless what she does, Gwen does have this streak and will try to have just the teeny tiniest bit of harmless fun if she can help it.
Unnecessary Paranoia: Where is she going? Why is she running? She's scared? Scared of what!? Gwen is fearful of the most ridiculous things and is not afraid to show it.────── ♦ ──────H. A. B. I. T. S
Fidgeting: A fearful, shy girl will reflect this appearance wise. Hands together, eyes to the ground and constant shifting and playing with whatever she can to distract herself from whatever problems were occurring. Anything to take her mind off of whatever is going on.
Shyness: Gwen will often times be by herself. It's mostly cause she's awkward and she's scared she'll embarrass herself. Sweet but mostly keeps to herself. She's self-conscious and will mostly want to hide herself away despite wanting to join people and have fun. She's that unpopular kid that wants to have fun with everyone else basically.
Magic Tricks: When she's alone, she likes to do simple, small magic tricks because it's fun and what she does by herself almost all the time. She mostly likes to use cards and bunnies and other trinkets she's fashioned out of gold. She likes to use that and other campy, generic items. It's a fun hobby for her. Just don't tell her parents.
Quiet: Gwen keeps a lot of her opinions to herself. She's scared to speak out and draw attention to herself. Sometimes she doesn't have much to say or she's just not around anyone. It's not that she can't talk or that she won't know what to say. She doesn't want to hurt anyone with her words or overstep any boundaries. If she wants to say something bold, she'll quickly sketch something and probably run away, blushing.
Singing: When by herself, Gwen will sing her heart out. It also helps that she's a bit of a songbird. Though, she knows that she isn't anything spectacular but she does enjoy singing a few notes when there isn't anyone watching. God, how embarrassing would it be to have an audience?────── ☾ ──────F. E. A. R. S
Death: So final. So scary. What happens in death? Gwendolyn didn't want to find out. She would rather tow the line and do anything but die. Is it painful? Is it sad? She didn't want to feel anymore of that. Is it as bad as her life right now? She felt so curious about death but did not want to leave the world. Not when she hasn't had a chance to experience and explore.
Everyone Else in Silbern: Give her a reason to not be scared of one you. You, who kills ruthlessly and has no problem following the word of another. The other Vandenreich. Der Kaiser is glorious but did it always have to be about bloodshed? Gwen isn't a firm believer yet but she has no problem acting like it to get everyone off her back.
Hollow/Arrancar: They hurt. They hurt lots. They seem terrifying. Creatures in a constant state of pain and hunger. Part of Gwen feels pity for them. Their lives led them to a point where they'd be lost and brought into that state but it is in that state where they become animalistic. They lose their senses and seem hellbent on destroying until they reach satisfaction.
Killing someone else: She'll be damned if she hurt someone else. Gwen knows that becoming a Vandenreich Quincy means that she will have to one day, but she wants to help people too. She doesn't want others to feel pain. So, imagine how she'd feel if she had to kill someone. It's such a terrible thing to do to someone. Gwen cannot fathom why people love it so much. Life is precious. It's such a despicable thing.────── ✶ ──────G. O. A. L. S
Confidence: Gwen is anything but confident around her peers. Without them, she feels clarity and control. Around them, she feels fearful. She feels as if others may judge her and that the zealots may come after her. One day she aspires to understand them and be a little more confident around them. As of now, she doesn't entirely want to be around them and is fearful of them.
Getting over her fears: Obvious but Gwen lives in constant fear that she will die for being different or thinking differently. At some point, she just wants to be able to walk around Silbern without having to worry about the idea of someone killing her simply for not. Gwen knows she has a lot of unreasonable fears. Some as small as mice. She'd like to think one day she'll be able to do it easily.
Take over the Von Stier family: Gwendolyn hates how the Von Stier family is run. It's a family with a lot of lies, corruption, deceit and evil in its past. If she could run it. She could take it in a much better direction. She could make things proper. Noble. Good. It would be golden.
A. L. I. G. N. M. E. N. T : Passive Good
O. V. E. R. A. L. L xx P. E. R. S. O. N. A. L. I. T. Y:
"All that is gold does not glitter..."
If Gwendolyn's life was a fairytale, it would be Rapunzel without the happy ending. It would be a fairytale with no conclusion. Her story is one where the princess is still stuck in her tower and wasn't let out for a long, long time. Or ever for that matter. She's the princess that is still stuck in her tower, watching listlessly outside of the window as the world passes her by. Wishing and waiting for someone or something to free her. A caged bird if you will. One might think of her as fragile but there are many layers to this pretty princess lying in wait.
Gwen is in no way mean spirited. She doesn't do things maliciously most of the time. For the most part, Gwen is kindhearted and helpful if asked. Of course, she wouldn't blindly help people that are trying to achieve something of a more malefic nature. Gwen is sugar & spice and everything nice, but she's not stupid. A little on the sheltered side maybe... but not stupid. Gwen is considerate of other's feelings; often wondering if she'll upset the other person with her actions or if they'll appreciate a kind gesture. Sometimes she tends to over think things a bit too much.
She is not outspoken. Not in the slightest. If she needs to speak out, chances are, she won't. She's afraid of upsetting people with her words or overstepping boundaries with them. Gwen doesn't like being noticed because she's not sure if its a good thing all the time. She likes to sit back and listen to people. She likes to observe them and get a feel for what's actually going on instead of what she's being told; which, in some ways, can be two very different things. Of course, she realizes this comes against her in many ways. Sometimes she does need to open her mouth and more often than not; finds herself regretting not saying anything in the first place.
Gwendolyn is full of lots of insecurities. Lots. Her parents put immense pressure on her as a child and as a result, she firmly believes that she is not good enough and doesn't want anyone else in the world to know it. Scared of being disappointing to everyone around her. Scared of upsetting someone. Scared of being found out that she isn't a complete die hard like everyone else. This and that. It is a prominent fear. She knows that somewhere along the line, she'll have to either have to adapt or make lots of changes. However, if she could avoid all the messy fearful stuff, then Gwen is a super happy camper.
Most of her life was spent being suppressed by her mother and her father. Her father trained her harshly. Everyday. For as long as she could walk and talk, she was forced to train rigorously and he wanted to turn her into the ultimate killing machine. That harsh training coupled with her mother's harsh criticism, abuse and jealously is what led to Gwendolyn's timid, fearful nature. She wants to please but she also wants to be happy. She is constantly torn between the both. She has seen them both do horrendous terrible things and in wanting to not end up like others, she obeys everyone else.
Self preservation is so incredibly important to this girl. To be alive is the greatest thing in the world and Gwen wanted to live. After being deprived from all the pleasures life had to offer for a majority of her life, she wanted to experience it all. She wanted to have the chance to live her life without a leash. -lmao i'm mad lazy finish this i swear.
Being on "house arrest" sure was no fun to the girl but Gwendolyn was always a determined spirit. She was restricted from so much as a child and even as an adult that normally, it would drive any obedient child crazy. However, Gwen was anything but. She played the part of being the child that listened and the one that did what she was told but her feelings didn't change. She wanted to run, explore, experience the world. Gwen always knew she was being held back by her wretched family. It was always one thing after another with the Von Stiers.
As a result, she has developed a slightly rebellious streak. There is a certain pettiness to this Stern Ritter and she has no problem exacting her sneaky revenge. Even if it is in small, harmless doses like messing with her mother's flowers. In every case, that is what it is, harmless. How she does it is frightening to those watching her. She will do it right under that person's nose and attempt to do so without a trace if possible. If there's no chance of her getting away with it then she won't do it.
