What's It Like Getting Stood Up? [R / NDE]

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Posting from my phone. Will post stats and stuff once home

Annoyed. Was that the best word to describe how Luke had been the past couple of days? He couldn't really blame his growing attitude towards anyone but himself, but let's back up. Things had been interesting since Luke met that person called Taka. What started as a hit and run that left his bicycle a victim soon spiralled into a night that Luke wouldn't be able to forget. Flirting, drinks, introduction to mod souls, breaking in a museum, snatching a dinosaur and fighting a Hollow ended in Luke discovering something about himself. Granted it was more like Taka decided to take him down in the catacombs that her club was built on. Down in that pit Luke had something revealed to him. Taka introduced him to the one permanent guest she kept in that prison. It was there that the bomb about Luke really was had been dropped, and now he was dealing with the fallout from that.

The past few days had not been easy on the young man. He'd been unable to sleep properly. So many questions were rattling around in his head that he felt like screaming sometimes. What am I? Am I going to end up like him? Am I going to turn into a killer? Why me? Am I a monster? The thought of him becoming a monster that crept through the city at night chewing on peoples throats did not sit well with him and was part of the reason he had so much anxiety. Luke was afraid. He was afraid of himself. He was afraid at what he might become.

The days were Luke didn't slave away at a shit job though were spent either wandering around Karakura or spending some time at his gym. If he couldn't count numbers then he worked his body into exhaustion. All of it was done to avoid sitting around and thinking. He did what he could to avoid thinking about what he had learned in that prison that night. He kept himself busy to keep himself from worrying about himself and what he could end up becoming. Meeting with Zan and having his story told to him put a fear in the young man. He was afraid. He was afraid of Zan, afraid of what he could end up becoming, afraid of himself. The thing he summoned in the museum had woken him up to the fact that he still had secrets and powers undiscovered, and that unknown scared Luke.

It came with no surprise then that Luke found himself out on a walk. He hadn't been able to sleep, his attempts to dodge his growing anxiety finally taking a toll on his sleep. He let one of the bouncers know he was going out for a walk, making sure to take his sword with him in case he ran into a Hollow. It wasn't terribly cold tonight, meaning Luke was fine in his hoodie. He wasn't really sure where he was wanting to go, more just hoping that burning some steam would help him get back to sleep when he got back. "Let's go get a hamburger!" Jager suddenly suggested, knocking Luke out of his unconscious walking and causing him to shake his head.

I'm not hungry stupid. Luke responded hesitantly. "Well fine then grouchy. Where're you going anyways? All the nice ass is back at the club." Jägers perverse comments were actually pretty nice to hear right now. Don't know. Can't sleep. Figured some air would be nice. Luke replied, stopping at a intersection and waiting for the cars to go past. "You wanna talk about it?" The Doll questioned, though Luke remained silent. "Oh come on. I know what's got you downer than a downsy-" Don't finish that one. And I know you do...I just don't know what to do...or really how to go about this. Luke explained, sighing to himself mentally.

He found himself by Karakuras river, sitting on the grassy hill you always saw in animes. The city lights and moon reflected off the surface of the flowing water, making it look far more pleasant to the eyes than it had any right to be. How am I supposed to go about this? It's not the fact that I learned I'm not really human. Hell, I've had that sneaking suspicion ever since I was a kid. But the fact that I'm a fucking Bount and could end up...end up needing to start eating living people? It's like being told you have a unknown deadly illness that's behaving like a god damn timebomb. How am I supposed to act after learning that? If I didn't start freaking out then is was something wrong with me! Luke dumped on his Doll.

Jäger was quiet for a minute before deciding to pitch his own thoughts in. "Well...don't let it get you down! I don't get where you're coming from, but I get why you're freaking the fuck out. You've got me and Taka to help you figure this shit out. Don't let this shit bottle up inside, otherwise it's gonna bukkake all over you. You've got people you can talk to." Jäger stated, prompting a small smile and a shake of the head from Luke. The hell was he going to do with this Doll. They were comforting words to hear, and were enough to get Luke to calm down. With a grunt he pushed himself to his feet and readied himself to leave, but not before he suddenly felt a ping in his Energy Sensory. Now just who was that? Wait...what day was today? "Friday isn't i---OOOOHOAHAHAHAHAHAAAGH!" Ah...shit. That was right. Friday. And Luke had forgotten what he had planned this evening completely. Well, looks like it was time for Luke to go...this was a conversation he woulda preferred to avoid.

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{Stats and Skills}
Luke | Soldier

Strength - 100 - 70 Points

Speed - 200 Points

Spiritual Pressure - 200 Points

Reiatsu Strength - 200 - 300 Points

Light Aura - 90 Points

Dark Aura - 10 Points

Instinct - 200 Points

Senses - 150 Points

Energy sensory - 50 Points

Healing Expertise - 0 Points

Total SP: 1100 Points


[Street Fighting] {2}


[Weapons: Sword] {2}


[Battle Analysis] {2}


[Pain Tolerance] {2}


[Strength of Will] {2}

[Yetsuna Yishnir]

A few days had come and gone in an instant since her fight with that human Luke and now it was time for the date she had promised him. Even though he had "lost" the fight she had decided to give him the date for a few reasons. The first was that Luke had her interest, not exactly in a romantic kind of way, more he was different and she wanted to learn more about him. Second was a chance for him to do the same to her, he was new to her world and having some more info about what he was dealing with would be helpful to his survival. Third was it was a free dinner.

She made her way over towards the squad 12 R&D department to go pick a new blank gigai. She had decided to change her look a few days ago so her old gigai, the one with the green hair, didn't exactly look like her anymore and she needed a new one before going to see Luke. She could have taken the old gigai without an issue, but she figured she might get a laugh out of his reaction to seeing her change as well as it was going to be less of a headache to explain she changed her overall look then explain how gigai's work and why her soul body was different from her spiritual one.

It only took her a few minutes with the egg heads to get what she needed, though they tried to convince her to try it out where they were to make sure it took properly, which she knew was a lie, they just wanted to see her naked, blank gigais didn't come with clothes. Once she got back to her room she got to work finding a nice outfit for the evening, though she didn't have too many things to match her new hair color, so instead of meeting him in some kind of slinky dress she wore a fairly plain outfit and they could go shopping before they went to dinner.

Her outfit was fairly similar to the one she wore the night they met, but instead of wearing a royal purple top she wore a white deep V-neck with a random design on the front. She made her way towards the senkaimon after she got dressed and the gigai all configured then asked to be dropped off near the arranged meeting spot with Luke. A quick flash of light and she was in a park in Karakura, but, oddly enough, there was no Luke, maybe he was just running a few minutes late.

She made her way towards a nearby bench and took a seat, crossing her left leg over her right and leaning back to look up at the sky. It was a nice night, clear and cool, the moon was high and large, lighting up the area like a dim sun while the stars shone, trying to add what little light they could. It was rare Yetsuna got to enjoyments like those, partially because she was always on the go with work, but mostly because it wasn't very often that she took to time to be cognizant of the beauty around her. She remained where she was for a good time, soaking in the night sky, but eventually she began to get bored with waiting for Luke.

The dirty blonde got up from her seat and began wondering what was holding up the man, he wouldn't stand a girl like Yetsuna up, hell no one would. Between her growing boredom and curiosity she was beginning to become restless so she decided to set out to hunt Luke down. She focused briefly on her energy sensory, trying to extend her range beyond her immediate area and, after a few seconds, she managed to lock onto the human's strange reaitsu and was actually surprised to find it some close, and it actually felt like he was moving away from her..... 

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Was that Yetsuna? Luke had paused in his walking, turning himself in the direction of the signal he was picking up on the edges of his Energy Sensory, doing his best to analyze the reiatsu. It surely felt like Yetsuna, but compared to the last time they met it felt so...unrestrained. It was like someone turned the faucet on fully rather than letting it drip. What had happened? Did Yetsuna go through some sorta hellish training or fight when they last met that caused her reiatsu to spike to such uncontrollable levels? Luke frowned, putting his chilly hands in his sweaters stomach pocket, before turning his back to the signal and continuing his walk. Jäger, if he had eyes, would have blinked. "You're not going to go see her? After all the shit you gave me for giving her shit?" The Doll did not have a good opinion of Yetsuna.

When the two had last met a pleasant conversation had led to them sparing. It had been fun, a dinner date even being wagered if Luke could land a blow, but the enjoyment ended when Yetsuna just decided to cut their fight short and tell Luke he had no chance of hitting her. On top of that she even said he could still take her out for doing such a good job. Luke didn't like the idea of a consolation prize after getting shat all over and having his hard work slapped in his face. Granted Luke didn't take it that hard after Yetsuna explained her actions, even though he had been hurt at first, but Jäger was a different story. He'd gotten beyond pissed at Yetsuna for shattering Lukes confidence, and at Luke for thinking himself weak for not using his full powers; his Doll.

I'm not in the mood for company. I've got too much on my mind. Luke explained. He wasn't, entirely, mad at Yetsuna or anything. Sitting on his defeat the days after managed to make Luke feel really salty about how things ended, and he really wasn't a fan of a "you tried" reward. Yetsuna was just going to have to deal with him standing her up. In all honesty he had forgotten he had made plans with her tonight, and the two getting detected on each other's energy sensory abilities was little more than a coincidence. "Yeah I hear ya. Taka and the girls at the club are hotter than her anyways." Jäger snickered, prompting a sigh from Luke. That's...what's that gotta do with anything?

I don't feel like giving her my time right now. Luke sighed, and decided to do the spirit energy equivalent of turning his cellphone off. He suppressed his energy, in hopes that doing so would keep him from being detected by Yetsuna if she hadn't picked up on him already. His footsteps and Jägers bad jokes were his only company as he continued walking, hoping to increase the distance between him and Yetsuna and not have any sort of drama tonight. He really wasn't in a good mood, and would probably say something he might regret if he got put in a awkward situation.

[Yetsuna Yishnir]

Just as she sensed him his energy signature disappeared, but it wasn't a sudden cut off like he had died, not it was a gradual lowering into nothing. Suppressing reaitsu wasn't a hard or long task to do, but it did have the tell tale sign of it signature getting weaker before it disappeared. Chances were slim that Luke had just randomly chosen that moment to hide himself, no he had sensed her presence and tried to hide himself from her, the question the remained was "why?". This was supposed to be their first meeting since their little sparring match, and from Yetsuna's memory of it, they had ended on fairly good terms and some high expectations of a nice evening. She remembered she had somewhat hurt the man's feelings by ending their match a bit early, but she explained the reasoning behind her choice and Luke had seemed to take heart from it. Maybe her little speech hadn't sunken in fully or something?

Yetsuna easily could have sat there and pondered all sorts of variables about why Luke would be avoiding her, but none of it was going to get her any really answer, so she decided to just confront Luke about it. The human male had severed her ability to sense him fairly quickly, but that brief moment was enough to give her at least a general direction to head in to try and find him, but a direction wasn't enough, she need elevation, which meant she was going to need to ditch her new gigai already. "If I had known this was how tonight was gonna go I probably just woulda left this thing in my barracks..." she thought to herself with a small tone of amusement. She fished out the gikon she always kept with her whenever she had her gigai, Violet, and swallowed it forcing her soul out of the false body.

"Hi!," the soul immediately greeted her as she took control, it was actually one of the reasons she like this particular gikon so much, she was high energy as sweet as hell. "Hey, I don't exactly know how long I'll be gone, go do something to keep yourself occupied in mean time, I'll call you later when I need you back,"  "Alrighty," the gigai replied before heading off towards town. The gikon and Yetsuna had a large number of over lapping interests so her guess was that it was probably going to go to a club while she was busy, but it didn't really matter, she trusted Violet to keep herself out of trouble. With a strong leap into the air Yetsuna started to move in the direction she had sensed Luke.

She didn't get a sense of how far away Luke was so all she had was a general direction to work with, and that wasn't much when you were hunting someone, hence why she chose to get an elevation advantage. The view from the air was much useful and unobstructed then from the ground and coupled with the eyes of a trained sniper she after a few minutes she managed to spot the man, hands in his pocket and a slumped slow walking posture, nothing like what she had seen first time she met him. Slowly she began descending towards him the sword on her back slowly growing outwards to coat her body in metal as did. Once with about 30 feet she'd use her powers to cause a stone wall to appear in front of Luke.

If he was paying any sort of attention he would notice the wall and stop, but if not he'd end up walking into it and smashing his face, likely to Yetsuna laughter. As she got closer she'd call out to him in her typical warm hearted tone, "You know it's not nice to stand a girl up on a date, especially when she travels across dimensions just to see you." It was fairly easy to tell that she wasn't really sour about him not showing up, which might make Luke wonder why she had bother to track him down. "I'm hoping you've got a decent excuse for not showing," she teased.

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Shit Luke mentally swore, pausing in his walking when he felt the spiritual signature that belonged to Yetsuna begin to move. Had she noticed him? Luke had no clue if she had Energy Sensing capabilities when he suppressed his own energies, doing it out of unnecessary desire really, but it certainly seemed like she did. Luke should just assume everyone can sense energy until proven otherwise from now on. He let out a quiet grumble, rubbing the back of his head as he continued with his walk. "You gonna use that Movement thing to get out of here?" Jäger asked, prompting Luke to shake his head. No. I'm gonna hope she realizes that I'm not interested in hanging out and just turn around. Luke explained, sighing a little.

But it seemed that his wishful thinking was just that. Wishful thinking. He was forced to stop when a wall of earth, seemingly appearing from nowhere, blocked his path. Had he not been paying attention to what was ahead of him he would have walked right into it. God....daaaaaamn it.... He mentally groaned, staring at the wall for a few moments before he heard Yetsunas typical, and yet strange for the situation, warm hearted tone. The way she was speaking and the words she was delivering to him...was she not angry? She sounded amused more so than anything. Shouldn't she be mad? "I could certainly rustle her jimmies if you want." Jäger suggested, which was smartly ignored by Luke.

He turned from facing the stone wall to instead look at her, blinking when he...didn't recognize her at first. Her hair, eyes, and even small details about her face was different. She was...prettier then when he last met her. Damn. That made what he was doing suck even more. Luke might not have recognized her had it not been for her reiatsu, which he had picked up on first, and the armor that adorned her body. Why was she already in that form? Luke hadn't felt a sudden surge of power like he did when they sparred, which had signaled that she released her swords abilities. Did she already come in this state? If so then why? Or was something else going on? Yetsuna was different in more ways than just a trip to the plastic surgeon that was for sure.

Looking at him, Yetsuna would barely be able to recognize the young man she had seen nights before. That warmth, light, and energy he often had about it was gone. He looked tired, so very tired, coupled with slumped shoulders and a sour disposition written on his face. Luke didn't look very good. He didn't look sick or anything, but it should be obvious that something was up from his body language. "Couldn't you take the hint?" Luke asked, breaking his silence as he looked away from her, rolling his shoulders a little. "I didn't care enough to meet up with you. This, right now, is just a dumb coincidence." Luke explained, with a very cold tone in his voice.

Just go away. Luke didn't want her near him. He didn't want anyone near him. He didn't know if he would suddenly become some sort of man eating monster. He didn't know if he would suddenly attack anyone near him. He wanted to avoid it entirely. He didn't know what was going to become of him. The less people around, the less people that cared, the better. "Luke.." Not right now. He started walking, aiming to head around the stone wall she created, acting as if she was little more than a stranger to him. Or, worse, someone he didn't have any feelings for. "So go home or go find someone else to bother."

[Yetsuna Yishnir]

Even from a distance Yetsuna had been able to tell something was up with the man, his body posture was completely different then when they had first met, and that wasn't really the sort of thing that changed without reason. Despite the observation Yetsuna went in like nothing was wrong, she wasn't really the kind of person to modify her approach to someone based on their mood. For better or worse the human male didn't manage to slam into the wall she had made to prevent him from leaving before she had had a chance to talk to him. She could almost feel the annoyance coming off of Luke as she blocked him off and started to talk.

The female shinigami didn't really have an expectations of what the man was going to say to her when she finished talking, but her two main guesses were either going to be him dumping his purse about what was bother him or something to drive her away, the two typical responses when something is weighing on someones mind. Luke opted for the later, but unfortunately for him the dirty blonde wasn't that easy to fool. She let him turn around and take a step before causing another portion of earth to spike upwards cutting him off again, before responding to him in her usual playful tone. "Unfortunately for you I came all this way to see you so you're gonna be the one I bother tonight.

"Something's obviously on your mind so why don't you make this easy and just tell me what it is? Or if you'd I could just make you tell me what's the matter too," she said shifting her weight onto her right leg causing her hip to pop out as she crossed her arms. The latter end of her statement could have several implications based on her tone, which was the point, it was up to Luke which, if any, he'd wanna see. Even with her jesting it could be seen that there was a look of concern in her eyes for her friend, she did wanna help him, though the exact nature of this help was going to be based on how Luke reacted.

While Yetsuna cared deeply for her friends and always offered a helping hand where she could she wasn't the kind of person who bought into the "pity party" mentality. This was why never she didn't deviate from her normal self during interactions with people in bad moods, she'd try her hardest to make sure she didn't make anything worse, but she had no plans to baby someone because they were in a rough patch in their life. People in those kinds of places needed to be told to pick themselves up and keep going, not told that it's okay to wallow in sorrow, and if they needed a hand to pick themselves up off the ground? Well that's what friends were there for. 

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God damn it.. Luke swore mentally as yet another piece of earth rose up from the street to block his path. Why couldn't she have just taken the hint? Why couldn't she have just fucked off? Why the fuck couldn't she just have left him alone? Luke didn't want company right now. Luke didn't want anybody around him right now. He was going through shit right now that he didn't know how to deal with, that he knew nobody could relate to. Did Yetsuna ever find out her entire life had been a lie? Did she ever come to know that she wasn't actually what she thought she was, that she instead had the potential to become some blood sucking freak? Lukes entire life was rocked right now. He wasn't stable, personality wise, and was more than willing to lash out at people he cared about to drive them away.

"Unfortunately for you I came all this way to see you so you're gonna be the one I bother tonight." Despite the mood he was in...hearing that actually helped a little. He had stopped walking due to the earthen wall now blocking his path, not turning to face Yetsuna yet as he contemplated what he was going to do next. "Something's obviously on your mind so why don't you make this easy and just tell me what it is?" No. Luke wasn't going to tell her. How was she going to react? How did he know that Shinigami weren't also ordered and trained to hunt down freaks like him? There must have been a reason for why there were so few people with powers in this city. Maybe Shinigami enjoyed going on genocidal purges.

How would she understand anyways? What could she actually say, or do, that would comfort him or give him any sort of peace of mind? " Or if you'd I could just make you tell me what's the matter too," There it was. Yetsuna was willing to beat the information out of Luke. Beneath his sweaters stomach pocket his fists tightened together, curling enough to make the knuckles white. The young man turned his head towards Yetsuna, looking her dead in the eyes. He saw the concern hidden behind that playful gaze. He wanted to tell her. He wanted to just scream it at her, at anyone really, about just what the hell was going on. But he couldn't. He just couldn't.

Yetsuna would see that conflict in his eyes before they narrowed painfully. "Just fuck off already. Someone tells you to leave them alone and you threaten to make them tell you what's up? What sort of stupid fucking logic is that?" Luke snapped, suddenly kicking off the ground with a spirit energy enhanced jump. He easily cleared the street, landing up on the rooftop of a shop across the street from where he and the female Shinigami were talking. "I'm not going to just let you fuckin' walk all over me like you did last time either. If you come at me wanting a fight then I'll drop your ass here. So go fucking home Yetsuna." Luke shouted down at her before mumbling under his breath, unsure whether or not she would hear him, "You couldn't help me anyways.." And, honestly, how could she?

[Yetsuna Yishnir]

Luke was a bit touchier then she thought he'd be at least in his words. Yetsuna saw the pain in his eyes, whatever was bothering him was crushing him internally, a feeling she knew a bit better than she would have liked, something told her that story also might be coming out tonight, and she really didn't want it to. Luke did his best to snap at her and drive her away before attempting to take off and away from her again. She easily could have stopped him with another stone, but she decided not to, though she still intended to follow him, she wasn't that easy to discourage. The human man landed on the top of a building a short way off before shouting her.

In response Yetsuna would use a shunpo to show up on the same roof top a few feet away from him leaning against an AC unit, her armor resealed since she didn't need it anymore. The female shinigami showed up just as Luke finished muttering them himself, but Yetsuna still managed to hear what he had said, she had a fairly keen sense of hearing, something roughly close to a common house dog. "You'd actually be surprised what I can do, I'm more then a nice set of tits and a suit of armor, but I need to know what's wrong first," her voice was starting to shift her her normal playfulness to a more serious one, though it still held a caring edge to it.

"I know something's bother you, something that shook you at your core, and I AM going to help you, you aren't getting a choice in the matter. The question right now is is are you going to tell me willingly, which would be vastly preferred, or are we going to have to slug out your temper tantrum before you tell me anyway?" Yetsuna's wasn't gonna leave Luke alone, no matter what he said, she knew the look in his eye, and he needed someone to throw him a life line, though in this case she also might have to hold his head under the water first before he realizes that she's trying to help him.

If Luke looked at her he would be able to she that Yetsuna wasn't in a combative stance or posture, showing how she really didn't wanna have to deck him, but overall chances were slim her body language mattered. The female shinigami would keep her eye on Luke and watch for his response, in his current frame of mind if he chose to fight chances were he was going to do it with an attack instead of a challenge.  "I can do either or, just let me know which you'd prefer."

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She was persistent. Luke would give her that. Even after trying to flee the scene by leaping up to the top of a nearby building, she quickly followed after him by using the Step Technique commonly used by the Shinigami. Appearing leaning against an AC unit and removing her armor, Yetsuna once began laying into him about how she wanted to help him. She must have heard what he mumbled under his breath. It would explain what she was saying. And no, Luke didn't see her as just a pair of tits. Sure they didn't know each other for very long, but Yetsuna had proved herself to be someone who was genuinely kind. Hell, Luke had asked her out because he had liked her personality so much. The pretty face and knockers were just added bonuses. Why the hell was he thinking this now?

Why was Jäger being so damn silent too? Shouldn't he be screaming and screeching that Yetsuna was in his presence? He hated her. Luke even just having a thought about her was enough to cause the Doll to suddenly erupt into a series of insults and swears about the woman. Luke found his teeth grinding together, his jaws tightening as his irritation continued to bud. Why wouldn't she just leave him alone. What she said next had hit the nail right on the head. Something had rattled him to his core. She announced she was going to help him whether he liked it or not. But what she refered to it as struck a nerve in him. A "temper tantrum". A fucking temper tantrum? Is that what she thought this was?! Luke found his lips peeling back, rage bubbling up inside of him.

"A...tantrum. You...fucking..." Luke managed to get out between his tightened jaws, fingers tightening together with such force they were turning white. "What....the hell...do you know!?" Luke suddenly shouted angrily, suddenly thrusting one of those balled fists towards her. But rather than a fist it was instead an open palm, and Yetsuna would suddenly feel a sizeable surge of reiatsu coming from that palm. From his hand came a explosion of sudden light, a sizable ball of blue energy escaping from the thrust and heading directly for Yetsuna. It was fast. Especially for the short distance that was between them. With her Energy Sensory, Yetsuna would realize that getting hit by that attack wouldn't actually be a good idea without her armor.

If she dodged, which shouldn't be a problem for a trained Shinigami, the Spirit Wave would collide with the AC unit that she had been leaning on, causing it to explode with some serious power. Compared to when they last had their spar, it would become obvious to the woman that Luke had gotten stronger. Hell, he had gotten a lot stronger it seemed. He certainly wasn't able to do what he had just done before. Speaking of which, Luke wasn't actually done. If Yetsuna had taken her attention off of him to see the damage done to the building by his attack, she would look back, or sense, to see that Luke had leapt again. This time, though, he had actually leapt right at Yetsuna with his left arm held up horizontally from his body, as if to try and block whatever Yetsuna would throw at him.

His right arm, though, was pointed behind him with his hand curved inwards a bit. She would sense reiatsu building in his hand again. Luke, being closer to her unless she moved, would get to experience Luke throwing his right hand forward and blasting her, point blank, with one of those Energy Waves. But instead of being a ball like the other was, this was a blast. A beam. Something you might see out of some Saturday Morning anime. Yetsunas armor could certainly tank the Spirit Wave, but no doubt it would push her back as well as destroy the part of the roof she stood on as the remainder of the sizeable beam went around her defending form.

Why was he attacking her? What the hell was he doing? Was he an idiot? What the hell was wrong with him? What was he doing? Why did it feel...good...to just swing at something? Yetsuna wanted to help him, and now here was attacking her like she was some kind of idiot. Luke wasn't thinking straight. He was consumed by emotions. Confusion, frustration, anger, pain, doubt, anxiety. He was a volatile cocktail ready to burst. Why was Jäger so quiet? What the hell was he doing??

Remaining Reiatsu: 1960 / 2000
-40 for Spirit Wave x2

[Yetsuna Yishnir]

Yetsuna's comments seemed to be having a rather interesting effect on the human. On side it seemed that her words weren't falling on utterly deaf ears, some of the things she said seemed to be reaching him, but at the same time he only seemed to be growing more angry. She couldn't help but wonder what was causing the anger to rise out of him, granted she wasn't the most sensitive person on the planet, but if her words seemed to be reaching him there shouldn't have been a reason he was only getting more and more irritated. As the look of anger continued to grow she mentally queued up her release, she didn't rally wanna do it, but she had a feeling that she was gonna have to smack him around a bit.

It was then that one of Yetsuna's choices of words somewhat bite her in the ass. When she had used the term "temper tantrum" she had been referring to his anger and attempts to drive her away then the problems he was having, but it seemed that Luke drew a different conclusion. She felt his reaitsu spike as he bared his teeth at her, "Here we go," she thought to herself, Luke was gonna try to launch something at her, what it was though she wasn't entirely sure. The human male thrusted out his hand and from it shot a ball of energy of some sort. It was strong enough that if she got hit by it without her armor it would have hurt, but she knew with her armor its effects would be reduced to about nothing.

As the ball was released from Luke's hand Yetsuna unsealed her zanpaktou once more, encasing her in her armor in the blink of an eye. With a swat of her hand she sent the ball flying upwards into the night sky, disappearing into the night sky like another star. "Huh, that was a new trick when did you learn that?" she'd ask more or less ignoring Luke's anger before moving away from the AC unit and closer to the human. "Actually, you can tell me that later, for now I'll tell you something," her voice shifted again, this time taking on a more serious tone, like a mother scolding a child, "I may not now exactly what you're dealing with, but I'm fairly sure I can relate better then you'd think," she'd stop a few feet from Luke and cross her arms, seemed like she was gonna have to share her story after all, though she didn't wanna just dump it all out for him.

"I just finished dealing with a an issue of my own, how do you think i knew what your problem was? Why do you think that I'm going to help you? I barely survived my problem and if someone hadn't come along to help me I may not be here right now. You NEED someone to help you and I AM going to be that person. If being that person means I let you take a few swings at me so be it, I'm fairly sure I can take whatever you throw at me," the last of her comments wasn't a condescending remark about how Luke was weaker then her or anything of the sort, it was an assurance that he didn't need to worry about hurting her and was said with a much lighter tone then anything else she had said since she got serious.

The female shinigami avoided going into too much detail about her own issue from just earlier that week, it was a slightly sensitive topic that she didn't like going into. It made her feel vulnerable when she talked about it at length and for her that was one of the worst feelings on the planet, but at the same time she knew she needed to give some information to show that she was coming from a place of experience. Hopefully what she had given him, along with the offer to blow off some steam, would take Luke to a slightly better place, a place where she could actually work with him.

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She did it again. It was playing a fucking movie and rewinding to rewatch a certain part. It was like a case of fucking déjà vu. Once again his efforts were dumped on all over the place by Yetsuna. Granted, this time around, she had done so to defend herself rather than cut a spar short. If there was anything to take away from what happened it was that Yetsuna had to use her release to counter Lukes Spirit Wave. Encased in armor she swung her arm, bouncing away the orb made of focused spirit energy like it was a tennis ball. She made some smart comment about Luke learning a new trick before approaching him before he could fire off yet another one of his waves in blind anger.

She started talking again, adopting an almost motherly tone as she explained to Luke that she believed she could relate better to him than he thought. She told him she had gotten done dealing with her own problem, and it was how she had recognized that something was seriously wrong with him. Luke rested his eyes on the shorter woman, a face mixed with pain, anger, and confusion looking back at her as she explained how, whether he liked it or not, she was going to help him. She was even fine with him throwing some swings at her. Grinding his teeth together, Luke could feel that flaming anger inside him about to burn him again. His fingers were forming fists, and he was about to take that offer Yetsuna gave him, when a unlikely voice suddenly cut through his thoughts.

"Tell her." There was no hint of amusement. There was no sarcasm, no enjoyment, only a cool seriousness that was unnatural for Jäger. No, there was one other time he spoke like this. When Luke and Yetsuna had first spared. How Jäger reacted afterward. What? No, I can't! I- Luke began trying to make excuses. "Whether you like or not, this woman cares enough about you to let you throw some swings at her. She's about as full of herself as her tits, but she genuinely wants to help you. You're emotional, not seeing things clearly, and you need to calm down." Yetsuna would notice that Lukes expression was...softening. The tenseness of his body language was vanishing. Shoulders began to lower themselves, chest unpuffing itself, fists unraveling.

... Luke didn't have the words to respond, instead he let his gaze drift away from Yetsuna and settle somewhere on the floor. "I told you earlier that you can't let this bottle up, dumbass. It'll explode and the shrapnel will hurt everyone around you." Jäger was right. For once that shitty Doll was right. Luke exhaled, stepping back from Yetsuna with a almost lost look in his eyes. Like he wasn't sure where he was. He found his legs giving up on him by the raised edge of the rooftop, sitting and resting his arms on his knees and staring down at the floor. He was trying to find the words. God, he actually attacked Yetsuna.

What words was he going to say? How was he going to just...talk. Luke's lips began moving, as if he were trying to talk. Nothing was coming out, though, but struggled squeaks and failed words. His brow began to furrow itself as he struggled to just let it out. To tell Yetsuna meant he had to admit it to himself. "Only...a few days ago...I found out I'm...I'm not...I'm not as human as I thought I was." Luke suddenly said, bringing his hands together and intertwining his two hands fingers into one fist. God it sounded so stupid how he said it. "I mean I'm...what I mean is...I...it's..." Once again, just unable to find the right words to say it. "You dumbass do I need to say it for you?"

"I'm...a Bount..." He forced out. Saying that was like an anvil suddenly feel onto him. Hearing himself say it shook him a little, as if he still had refused to believe what he was. "My family...I don't know how much they knew, but I know that my...parents knew. Whether or not what I am had anything to do with my dads death...or my mom disappearing, I don't know. I've had people come after me...because they knew what I was when even I didn't. People have gotten hurt because of me." Luke explained, resting one hand on his face as he kept forcing it out, as he remembered what happened to his coworker that night. "I saw what...Bount become. I've seen what they do. They...they...we...eat people. They're fucking vampires. I've seen what they, we, turn into...when we can't stop drinking." Fear. Luke was afraid. He was afraid thinking of that man in the cell. He was afraid of thinking what might happen to him. Luke was afraid of becoming the same monster he saw in that cell.

[Yetsuna Yishnir]

Yetsuna carefully watched Luke for any signs of taking up her offer to blow off some steam, and be all measures it seemed like he was, his fists continued to clench tighter and tighter, slowly turning white with rage. Yetsuna prepared to intercept another attack from the man, she didn't wanna fight him while he was in this state, but at the same time she was fairly confident that she could fight him without either of them ending up in the hospital. Just as he was about to let loose again Luke seemed to stop dead in his tracks, like something had just thrown him off balance. Was it that voice in his head that stopped him?

During their initial meeting she remembered seeing Luke show signs like he was having an argument with a voice in his head, something she was somewhat with herself, and tried to get some info out of him about it. Of course he denied it, but it never snuffed out her suspicions. He paused for a moment and slowly he began to uncurl his fists and begin to relax. Seemed like she wasn't going to have to worry about either of them getting hurt anymore, at least she hoped. As Luke relaxed Yetsuna's armor would slowly begin to crawl back towards her back and reseal itself.

"So, if you don't wanna fight does that mean that you're ready to talk?" she'd ask, her tone still eerily similar to a mothers. Slowly Luke began to walk backwards a bit before settling down and taking a seat on the rooftop ledge, she'd take a few steps forward as well before turning her side to Luke and leaning on another AC unit. She could see a myriad of looks on Luke's face, she knew he was trying to find words to speak, but failing. It was never a easy thing to want to talk to someone, to want to ask for help, and find that your voice, for whatever reason, fails you.

Eventually he'd find some words, though he kept tripping over them. He mentioned something about not being as human as she thought, to which her mental reply was something along the lines of a polite "well duh,".  If memory served she had commented something along those lines when they met, but he had dismissed the idea. She could understand why such a revelation might be shocking to someone like Luke, but she had her theory from the get go so the information wasn't exactly news to her, what she did wonder now though was if Luke knew what her was.

Between the understandable pauses and stuttering it took a bit of time for the man to finally say the core what what he had been trying to: that he was a bount. Now that little bit of information was actually fairly surprising and not what she had been expecting. Fullbringer? sure. Vampire? not so much. Despite the surprise she still listened to Luke intently as he poured out his concerns over what he was. The female shinigami, unfortunitly, did not know much about bounts, they were mostly a footnote in the Gotei history a lot of people tried to forget, but she still had some information she could use to ease him a bit.

"I don't much about bounts," she said he voice shifting from serious to kind and thoughtful once more, "but I can tell you a few things. First is that you are stil you, regardless of what you are. Learning you have some weird powers and abilities doesn't suddenly make you a whole new person. Second is I'm not so sure you guys turn into the monsters you think you do. If it was really that bad I'm fairly sure there would be a kill order out for bounts and there isn't one, besides even if you did turn into some kind monster I'd show up at smack you upside the head until you went back to normal," she said in a cheery tone, trying to bring some light to the rather grim situation.

With a sigh she'd shift back to a serious tone again, "Unfortunitly I can't really give you too much solace about the people who've been hurt because they've been around you, but I can tell you it's not you're fault. You didn't know what you were or that you were being targeted, but now that you know, you have some new responsibilities. You have power that most people don't and that makes you target for all manners of things. You probably also see this power as a curse, and for most humans it likely is, but it's a curse you're going to have to live with, the question is will you take the hand you've been dealt, the power you've been given, and use it to the best of your abilities, protecting the people around you or will you just wallow in some despair and give up?"

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Yetsunas words helped. They really did help. For him to just unload his problems on her and for her to give him such reassurances did help. She believed that Luke was still Luke despite this discovery, that there was no apparent KoS order on Bounts, that Luke now had new responsibilities because of his powers. Yeah no fucking shit Yetsuna. Luke had already sworn to himself that he would use his powers to protect himself and others. He didn't find much enjoyment in being a freak and as a result he only rarely used his spiritual abilities. Considering that was the case it was certainly interesting then just how quickly he grew. His potential must have been insane. But getting back to the point, what Yetsuna said had certainly helped.

But it didn't cast aside all his concerns. "How do you know?" Luke would question her after moments of silence once she had finished talking. Fingers would tighten on his knees as the questions bouncing around in his head fought one another to try and force themselves out of his mouth. "You just said it yourself. You don't know much about Bounts. A lot of what you said makes sense...but you don't fuckin' know." Luke wasn't making much sense with his words again. "Of course just finding out about what I really am, where my powers come from, isn't going to just turn me into a monster. That would be fucking stupid! I don't know if I'm going to turn into a monster, Yetsuna!" Luke snapped at her.

She didn't see the man in that cell. She hadn't experienced the sensation of being in that things presence. Its hunger directed at him. All that bloodlust, malice, anger, hunger...all of it had been directed at him. Something that was the same thing he was, but was the worst they could become. "What if I suddenly wake up one morning and have to start...drinking...people? I can't do anything about it? I can't stop. Don't you get what I'm freaking out about? I don't know if I'm a serial killer time bomb that's counting down!" Luke explained. "The mental image of Jack the Ripper exploding out of a bundle of dynamite is making me giggle." Fuck off.

Of course what happened to the people around him wasn't his fault. What happened to his coworkers hadn't been his fault. He didn't have his Doll yet to protect them. He didn't have the powers to help them. Hell he had barely been able to help himself out of that situation. So while Luke blamed himself for all that nonsense, it hadn't actually been his fault.

[Yetsuna Yishnir]

It seemed that her words had help ease the man's mind to some extent, but she could still see that there were some portions of his mind where dark questions lurked, questions like those were rarely laid to rest easily. Again he expressed his concerns about possibly turning into some kind of monster, and she tried once more to ease his concerns, "I may not know anything for sure, but I feel fairly sure in saying you aren't going to become some kinda monster, just call it a woman's intuition, you human's normally trust that sort of thing don't you?" she'd ask in a slightly joking tone trying to brighten up the mood again, the atmosphere here was so damn dark she was getting physically crushed by it. Did she have the dark of an aura when she had her episode?

She wouldn't wait for Luke response before continuing on with her comments, "Though now that I think about it I think I know some place where I can get some info. Division 12 typically keeps info on other races in some archives, I'm not entirely sure what they would have, but I'm sure I could find at least a few useful things there." Yetsuna honestly had no idea what kind of info the R&D guys would have or if she could even access it, now that she was a vice captain she had some authority, but the guys in squad 12 were notoriously hard to deal with when they had something you wanted. Worst comes to worse she might have to put in a bit of a show of force to get them to give her what she wanted, though their captain might have some words about it later, but she'd cross that bridge when she got there.

After a pause she continue on, "That said, let's say I did find something to support this whole monster theory of yours, I already told you that I'd come here personally and beat you upside the head until you went back to normal, so I don't see why you're so concerned," it wasn't hard to tell that she was joking around trying to make Luke feel better about this whole thing, though she had some concerns he might not see the joke value. Yetsuna had a lot of doubts that he would turn into some kind of monster, like she had told him earlier, if that was a normal thing bounts would likely have a kill on sight order, but even with the chances slim she did have some concerns he might be right and what she'd have to do to deal with him.

If Luke did turn into some kind of monster she'd be the one to show up and deal with him, but what exactly that would entail she didn't know. It could be as simple as fighting him until some kind of bloodlust wore out or as dark as potentially have to kill him. Yetsuna had a soft spot for Luke, she hadn't known him long, but there was something about him she liked, and the thought of having to kill him didn't sit well with her, but at the same time, wasn't it better to go at the hand of a friend then a stranger in a situation like that?

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Women’s intuition. Heh. If Luke was in a normal state of mind or was being himself he might have had a slightly sexist, joking thing, to say about that. But right now, as he was, he simply raised his head up and rested his eyes on Yetsuna. Those brown orbs of his were filled with so many emotions. Confusion, fear, disbelief. But listening to her, hearing Yetsunas words of encouragement and support he began to feel…hope. He wanted to trust her. He wanted to believe her words. They were like honey in his ears. But if his doubts could be so easily swept aside he wouldn’t be so miserable. There were still too many questions without answers. Questions that he knew Yetsuna just couldn’t answer.

Yetsuna didn’t see what he had seen. She didn’t see that man. If she did and got told that “this is what you could end up becoming” Luke didn’t doubt she would be just as confused and concerned as he was. But there was more than that. A deeper issue, one that he was only now realizing. His parents had lied to him. Ever since he could remember he’d always been able to see ghosts. Why that was he never knew. He asked his mother once and she had fed him a redirecting answer that satisfies a six year old. If he was born this way then certainly one or both of his parents had been a Bount. Did this have something to do with his father’s death? His mother directed him to Karakura with that letter so he would discover this. So his mother knew. And hid it from him.

"That said, let's say I did find something to support this whole monster theory of yours, I already told you that I'd come here personally and beat you upside the head until you went back to normal, so I don't see why you're so concerned,"

A lot of the same words were said again, as well as Yetsuna just saying she didn’t get why he was so concerned. He couldn’t be mad at her, not anymore, since he understood she didn't get it. Really how could see. But what she said kept ringing in his ears. ”Then… I’ll hold you to that. If I go full Dracula meets Jack the Ripper…you need to take me down.” Luke said, removing Yetsuna from his gaze and focusing back on some unimportant detail of the roof. Stretching his lips and closing his eyes, Luke let out a groan. Suddenly jumping to his feet he turned towards Yetsuna, a weird frown on his face.

”Hit me” He suddenly said with an unwavering voice. What was he asking? ”I took swings at you and I won’t be satisfied or able to forgive myself if you don’t at least get one in. So, go ahead, hit me as hard as you can. I want to get this shit out of my head, and a little pain will get me to focus on something else for a moment.” Luke stated. Getting hit would send a mix of chemicals through his brain and body that could potentially knock him out of his funk. ”Preferably not in the nuts or any kind of permanent damage..” he suddenly added, realizing he might just need to make that clear.