Post by Connor Greaves on Oct 15, 2017 14:25:18 GMT -5
Ooc: Half Ctp, half Sp
I hate being a Shinigami. I almost always refer to myself as a soul reaper, just to avoid the actual name. Being associated with those who call themselves gods leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I am not god, nor would I want to be one if given the option. The label of Shinigami is a badge of shame for me, but it is one I must wear. I am duty bound to follow through with saving those who suffer, those trapped between life and death, as well as defending those who have yet to die. A morbid job, but one I will do with what little pride I have.
Those were my thoughts, as I wandered this small town in Germany. I am still considered a new reaper, having only been accepted into their ranks roughly a week ago. Or maybe it was longer, the days were starting to blend together in that twisted purgatory. I wanted, no- NEEDED a change. It might not have been as bad if I had been accepted into my preferred squad, but alas, it was not to be. So I had requested a month to patrol in the human world. I had yet to prove myself, so the assigned me a town with low risk for hollow attacks.
I was fine with that. The less danger for the people the better. Once this month was over, I had the potential to move on to more exciting towns. Hopefully not anywhere near Karakura. That place was the highest rated spot for hollows and the like, and there was no way I would be ready for that any time soon. I could barely handle one hollow, let alone an army, like many of the horror stories told about that place. Whatever blessing God gave that place was almost certainly the only reason that city still stood.
I looked to the sky, admiring the beauty of the setting sun. A symphony of colors, mixing together in harmony. It was almost enough to bring a tear to the eye, to see that the world still had some beauty left in it. Still, I was the only one paying attention to it. What few people were still in the streets, shuffled or drove away, giving it only a passing glance. It hurt to see my fellow man ignore it so calously, but I was in no position to judge those with a duty to the world. Those who were unable to pause for even a moment, lest the world consume them for their weakness.
I should consider myself fortunate enough to be out of that vicious cycle, but a part of me craves it once more. Something about the prospect draws me towards it, towards being alive once more. Is it the challenge of surviving the world of man? Of being free of the burden of knowledge, knowing what happens when you finally leave life behind? Probably all of that and more. Before I knew it, the sun had finally fallen below the horizon, leaving the sky void of color. I sighed, knowing that I could not waste any more time. Much like the humans, I have my own job to do.
Some might say my job was easy, compared to some jobs that persisted in this town. I would vehemently disagree. Walking up to the next house on my list was a chore. The house was long since rotted, leaving a stench in the air I care not describe. An abandoned home, left to die like the last owners, was the latest place for me to search. I had my own fears, and despite being a ghost myself, I was far from being a fan of haunted houses. Fear gripped my heart for a brief moment, before my sense of duty overpowered it, giving me the strength to walk inside.
I hate being a Shinigami. I almost always refer to myself as a soul reaper, just to avoid the actual name. Being associated with those who call themselves gods leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I am not god, nor would I want to be one if given the option. The label of Shinigami is a badge of shame for me, but it is one I must wear. I am duty bound to follow through with saving those who suffer, those trapped between life and death, as well as defending those who have yet to die. A morbid job, but one I will do with what little pride I have.
Those were my thoughts, as I wandered this small town in Germany. I am still considered a new reaper, having only been accepted into their ranks roughly a week ago. Or maybe it was longer, the days were starting to blend together in that twisted purgatory. I wanted, no- NEEDED a change. It might not have been as bad if I had been accepted into my preferred squad, but alas, it was not to be. So I had requested a month to patrol in the human world. I had yet to prove myself, so the assigned me a town with low risk for hollow attacks.
I was fine with that. The less danger for the people the better. Once this month was over, I had the potential to move on to more exciting towns. Hopefully not anywhere near Karakura. That place was the highest rated spot for hollows and the like, and there was no way I would be ready for that any time soon. I could barely handle one hollow, let alone an army, like many of the horror stories told about that place. Whatever blessing God gave that place was almost certainly the only reason that city still stood.
I looked to the sky, admiring the beauty of the setting sun. A symphony of colors, mixing together in harmony. It was almost enough to bring a tear to the eye, to see that the world still had some beauty left in it. Still, I was the only one paying attention to it. What few people were still in the streets, shuffled or drove away, giving it only a passing glance. It hurt to see my fellow man ignore it so calously, but I was in no position to judge those with a duty to the world. Those who were unable to pause for even a moment, lest the world consume them for their weakness.
I should consider myself fortunate enough to be out of that vicious cycle, but a part of me craves it once more. Something about the prospect draws me towards it, towards being alive once more. Is it the challenge of surviving the world of man? Of being free of the burden of knowledge, knowing what happens when you finally leave life behind? Probably all of that and more. Before I knew it, the sun had finally fallen below the horizon, leaving the sky void of color. I sighed, knowing that I could not waste any more time. Much like the humans, I have my own job to do.
Some might say my job was easy, compared to some jobs that persisted in this town. I would vehemently disagree. Walking up to the next house on my list was a chore. The house was long since rotted, leaving a stench in the air I care not describe. An abandoned home, left to die like the last owners, was the latest place for me to search. I had my own fears, and despite being a ghost myself, I was far from being a fan of haunted houses. Fear gripped my heart for a brief moment, before my sense of duty overpowered it, giving me the strength to walk inside.