Post by Zeich Yajuu on Sept 17, 2015 23:31:27 GMT -5
“What am I doing, Haiiro...?”
It was a clear night, Zeich thought, though he couldn't be sure as his eyes stared into the darkness, pointed up towards the night sky yet seeing nothing. Blindness was still so foreign to him, but he was slowly becoming used to it, becoming used to missing out on all the things that he had once taken for granted. Seeing the stars in the sky, the moon, or being able to tell if it was overcast or clear, all of those things had seemed so simple back before everything had happened, so inconsequential. Now that they were gone, it just felt... empty. Zeich felt as though a large portion of his world, the world that his eyes had revealed to him, had been ripped away, gone forever thanks to the darkness in which Tsukikage had cursed him to exist.
Thoughts like this constantly plagued Zeich, even on his nightly walks where he stepped out into the cool evening air to clear his head and relax a little. He wasn't sure what he was doing, where he was going, how to move forward; everything from his past had simply been ripped away with his banishment from Soul Society, leaving him lost and confused. He had no purpose, and no place he belonged, so the question came again: now what? The Vizard sighed and stopped, crossing his arms as he let his empty gaze fall to the ground again, trying to clear his head; he had gone through this loop of self-doubt and questioning time and time again, and it was getting him nowhere. In a way, he was probably hoping that something would make the decision for him, determine a path and allow him to begin walking forward again. But in his head, he knew that it would have to be a path he forged himself.
It didn't help that he had a strange sort of premonition going on, either; Zeich was always a paranoid person to begin with, and expected the worst at all times, but this was a different sort of feeling. Ominous wasn't the right word for it, but maybe something... fateful. Something sent a shiver down his spine, a sense of something lurking, about to happen... but he wasn't sure what. Of course, it was just a feeling; Zeich couldn't actually determine if something could happen by just imagining it, but he also trusted his instincts. Something told him to be alert, not that he needed to be told, and as a result, he felt tense and uneasy. It was an uncomfortable feeling that gave Zeich a lack of security, something he definitely did not like.
Haiiro noticed as Zeich paused, voicing his concern mentally. Master, please summon me to your side. Uneasy as you are, it'll help to have a friendly set of eyes around so that you can see, even without your sight.” The Vizard absently nodded, and used the Spiritual Projection technique, summoning his former Zanpaktou Spirit into existence. The air shimmered briefly, and in a moment a large, ashen-gray wolf stood where nothing had been only a moment prior. Haiiro, Zeich's closest companion, immediately started casting his gaze about in order to assuage his master's worries. Golden eyes scanned the immediate area, spotting nothing, and he conveyed that quickly in order to calm Zeich's worries.
“Don't worry, master. It seems that all is clear. Perhaps the night air is just getting to you; should we head back?” Zeich shook his head in response. “No. Let's... just keep walking for a bit. I'm not ready to head back just yet...” With that, the Vizard resumed his walk, keeping to the back roads rather than heading to the main streets. The unlit walkways did nothing to deter him, as darkness did nothing for his lack of vision; rather, he preferred the back roads because there was less chance of encountering other people whom he did not wish to associate with. That, and he was walking with a wolf; being spotted was just asking for an annoying end to his already troubling evening. No, Zeich was happy remaining in the shadows, and staying away from other people. Hopefully, he could continue his walk in silence...
It was a clear night, Zeich thought, though he couldn't be sure as his eyes stared into the darkness, pointed up towards the night sky yet seeing nothing. Blindness was still so foreign to him, but he was slowly becoming used to it, becoming used to missing out on all the things that he had once taken for granted. Seeing the stars in the sky, the moon, or being able to tell if it was overcast or clear, all of those things had seemed so simple back before everything had happened, so inconsequential. Now that they were gone, it just felt... empty. Zeich felt as though a large portion of his world, the world that his eyes had revealed to him, had been ripped away, gone forever thanks to the darkness in which Tsukikage had cursed him to exist.
Thoughts like this constantly plagued Zeich, even on his nightly walks where he stepped out into the cool evening air to clear his head and relax a little. He wasn't sure what he was doing, where he was going, how to move forward; everything from his past had simply been ripped away with his banishment from Soul Society, leaving him lost and confused. He had no purpose, and no place he belonged, so the question came again: now what? The Vizard sighed and stopped, crossing his arms as he let his empty gaze fall to the ground again, trying to clear his head; he had gone through this loop of self-doubt and questioning time and time again, and it was getting him nowhere. In a way, he was probably hoping that something would make the decision for him, determine a path and allow him to begin walking forward again. But in his head, he knew that it would have to be a path he forged himself.
It didn't help that he had a strange sort of premonition going on, either; Zeich was always a paranoid person to begin with, and expected the worst at all times, but this was a different sort of feeling. Ominous wasn't the right word for it, but maybe something... fateful. Something sent a shiver down his spine, a sense of something lurking, about to happen... but he wasn't sure what. Of course, it was just a feeling; Zeich couldn't actually determine if something could happen by just imagining it, but he also trusted his instincts. Something told him to be alert, not that he needed to be told, and as a result, he felt tense and uneasy. It was an uncomfortable feeling that gave Zeich a lack of security, something he definitely did not like.
Haiiro noticed as Zeich paused, voicing his concern mentally. Master, please summon me to your side. Uneasy as you are, it'll help to have a friendly set of eyes around so that you can see, even without your sight.” The Vizard absently nodded, and used the Spiritual Projection technique, summoning his former Zanpaktou Spirit into existence. The air shimmered briefly, and in a moment a large, ashen-gray wolf stood where nothing had been only a moment prior. Haiiro, Zeich's closest companion, immediately started casting his gaze about in order to assuage his master's worries. Golden eyes scanned the immediate area, spotting nothing, and he conveyed that quickly in order to calm Zeich's worries.
“Don't worry, master. It seems that all is clear. Perhaps the night air is just getting to you; should we head back?” Zeich shook his head in response. “No. Let's... just keep walking for a bit. I'm not ready to head back just yet...” With that, the Vizard resumed his walk, keeping to the back roads rather than heading to the main streets. The unlit walkways did nothing to deter him, as darkness did nothing for his lack of vision; rather, he preferred the back roads because there was less chance of encountering other people whom he did not wish to associate with. That, and he was walking with a wolf; being spotted was just asking for an annoying end to his already troubling evening. No, Zeich was happy remaining in the shadows, and staying away from other people. Hopefully, he could continue his walk in silence...