Post by Lincilla Hiedora on Jul 22, 2011 5:06:44 GMT -5
The Serpents Lair, how drab it was. Simple four walls, a single window that looked at the false scenery that was given by Las Noches. The light of the false sun illuminated the room perfectly. The bed in the corner was rather lacking in design, a simple blanket, mattress and pillow set. More like a Cot than a bed at that. The walls were a simple marble white, just like the rest of the place. It would have been seen as heaven for the occupant, if not for the knowledge of what stayed outside the walls.
The knowledge that beyond the safety of the walls of Las Noches, lay Hueco Muendo. The land crawling with Savagery. Even there she could sense the wild nature of the beings out there, the beings she had been before. She had been at one time and will never go willingly back to being. She would never want to fall into that vicious cycle again. She still had nightmares of the times she could remember of being a hollow, though only brief glimpses alone. The feeling and knowledge that she used to devour unconditionally was making her worry, and drawing her more and more to pacifism.
She sat on her bed, the only real place to sit in her room, other than the undecorated floor. She sat there, and looked out the window, wondering why her room was so much like a prison? Why could the place not feel more like home? Why did it feel like she was still an animal, and that though she was intelligent, that this 'Las Noches' was but a prison made of glass? She could only think that there was someone else pulling the strings, but to speak up would be death, so she kept it to herself.
She knew of the Espada, but not well. She knew their numbers, which was ten. She knew that they were recognizable by tattoos, but she had no other knowledge other than that they were powerful Arrancar. The most powerful beasts in this cage. She would prefer the safety of her own lair, than to approach them. She knew from other numeros, that they could kill them just by raising their pressure on them. She did not want to die, let alone so helplessly. She would want to have a chance to escape, or to stop the attacks.
That meant she would need to train. It was all it meant, and it was something she did not want to face. To train was to prepare to fight, and though she wanted to be able to survive, she did not want to fight anyone. She could not bring herself to willingly kill anyone, not if she could get away, and also help them survive. She was not a medic, but she was not a murderer. She was a tactician. She only wished there was a Library here, so she could read.
She realized as she looked at that thought, how strange it was, that she could remember that she used to read. She did not know how she knew she could read written language, but she did. She knew it as if she had read a book recently. She thought it was strange but she realized she could read more than just Japanese as well. She could read many languages, and all of them seem to be written down, and from different eras. Her eyes widened at that realization. Could it have been the Hollows she ate when she was one? She did not know, but that brought her to looking out the window, and scribbling down something in a Grecian language, from Athens.
She was surprised she could read it, it was the spelling for her name in Greece, it was Hydra. She thought to what it meant to her, and blanched in disgust. It was a Snake. A multi headed serpent... Just like she was as a Hollow. She had a strange mixed feelings, for she loved, revered, feared and was grossed out by snakes. She had no idea why. The last one was the strongest though, it was like she was split on the subject. She wanted to gag at knowing she was secretly a multi headed snake. She felt insecure thinking about it, how was she to live with herself, if she knew she was but a snake in human form?
She felt a tear leave her eye, and land on the word, muddling it. Just why was she crying? Could snakes cry? She did not know. She just knew that her eyes were reflected in the water, and she could see the snake like gaze coming from them. She wanted to understand how a snake in human form could cry, and why she had a hole in her body that headed to nothing.
She realized then, that she hated herself, not for reasons that could be explained, but for reasons that were her being. She was a snake, with a hole in her body, one that she never wanted. Her green hair and snake eyes looked strange to her. She felt something was off looking at it. It was like looking at a stranger. Was that who she was, a stranger? This was who she was now, but did she know herself?
She could not say she did. She was Lincilla Heidora, Numeros Arrancar of Las Noches. Who was she though? She had an idea of what her wishes were, and some of her fears and worries. She knew she did not like fighting, and that she felt some things were silly while others were scary. Just why though? Why was she like that? She could not answer these questions, yet she was afraid to try to seek them out in Las Noches. She did not want either higher level to be angry at her.
She sighed as she looked out at the artificial sky. It was then noticeable to her, that the air lacked moisture. That sounded wrong to her mind, one that said that the air should be moist with the clouds in the sky. Just what was going on? She suddenly felt a wish to know. She wanted to learn, and that was drawing on her.