Post by Deleted on Jun 25, 2018 17:04:06 GMT -5
Joint Training with a hot new species! Sharkpires
A night all by her lonesome was not unusual. The Segunda sighed, looking back at Las Noches for a moment. She was back. It was weird. Asuka weirdly did not feel like herself. It was like she was in a different body or somethin’! Is this what they call paranormal activity? Those movies she saw on T.V that used to scare her and Li Mei were pretty terrifying. Though, if we were going to go into scary things, it would be those messages you get that tell you “If you don’t share this to 7 people and like and comment, your lover will die!” Gosh!!” Asuka didn’t want that. The threat seemed real enough and so she would comply. She was sure that she was alive today because she listened to the rules. Good on you, Asuka~!
But really, being Segunda did feel odd. She felt somewhat of a burden on her shoulders. Responsibility was one. Having enormous shoes to fill was another. Asuka knew she was no monster. Kuroi was a monster. He was fearsome and terrifying. His name alone was enough to instill fear. Asuka knew she was none of that. In fact, Asuka knew immediately what made her stand apart from her Espada counterparts; her refusal to kill. Really, it was kinda annoying that they ragged on her for it.. but it was her thing! She couldn’t help it! Asuka didn’t want to take another life. She’s only done it a handful of times and she didn’t enjoy it…
It was all really frustrating. Asuka knew she couldn’t be Kuroi 2.0. God, no. She was a far fuckin’ cry from it. She bit her lip and pouted when more of her insecurities assaulted her one by one. Asuka was strong. She knew she was but, she also wasn’t. In many ways, she still felt like the baby snake he took in and beat mercilessly over and over. Oh and he gave her nightmares. Oh oh oh! He also beat her to a bloody pulp. Sometimes it was because she fought bad and lots of others cause he wanted to. The man wasn’t here and she was still terrified of him. He’d created a legacy. Something Asuka feared she would not be able to do.
Life was tough, man. Asuka felt herself running into one dilemma after the other. Can’t live as a human. Can’t be a fake human. She burnt some oatmeal cookies this morning and now she’s Espada… Again! They really weren’t kidding when they said great power comes with great responsibility. You have to juggle all this stuff and be perfect! Gah! It’s like a…. a… What do they call it? At those shows with the creepy arrancar that were always smiley and the nice big cats that roaaaaar really loud? The lady with the beard and the people that walk on that tiny rope?! Think. Think. A battling act? The name was on the tip of her tongue and Asuka would pause midway during her walk out of Las Noches to attempt to remember it.
…Yeah. No.
It never came to her. Her mind felt like it was short circuiting the more the tried to think. She had other things to attend to after all! Like training! Asuka felt like she needed to get out of the Palace for a while. Away from Kouhai and his creepy, evil self. Away from all the arrancar she beat up the day she got back. Most importantly, away to focus on herself. She figured a few hours of some good ol’ rough n’ tough raw training should do the trick right!? The way the bubbly Espada thought, she figured she needed to break herself in a little bit. Like new shoes! Or a that pair of jeans where the button went flying and broke her mirror earlier this morning. It turns out jeans that have been around for a little less than a century aren’t necessarily safe and that was ok. Sad, but ok.
Asuka would walk into the desert. At first if felt like a leisurely walk. Her only company being the moon as it was for so many in their journey. She wanted to clear her mind and let it sink in. No matter how many times she told herself she was Segunda, it felt like it was a joke. Like none of it was real. Confidence was what she struggled with tremendously. Asuka stopped, ruffling her hair and shaking her head in an attempt to not let any of it get to her. She’d whine and pout and scream “I’m the Segunda!!! Aha~!” into the empty desert. Asuka felt a rush of excitement but also frustration. She almost didn’t know what to do with herself for the moment.
Crack.
The sound of her whips echoed through the night. Like lightning cutting through silence. Asuka moved with terrifying grace as she swiftly drew her zanpaktuo and lashed out. She loved the sound of it. It felt all cool and powerful and awesome and great and super and amazing and fun and flashy and and and… Yeah!! Gosh! She sure loved those words. They were her favorite words to describe all her favorite things. The only thing that would make this better is The Segunda would continue, moving quickly and cracking her whips at nothing. The more she moved, the more she forgot about her worries. The more she felt at home. Then again, no matter how much she wanted to be away from it and no matter how much scary werecow shit was in it, Hueco Mundo was her home… And in Hueco Mundo, there was always something new to worry about. Crack